Starting a new job
I haven’t added to this blog for some time. There is one dream, though, that I wanted to write about. It was set in my old primary school in the south of England. I saw a girl whom I recognised and I called out her name, “Rebecca!” Rebecca was my first real crush as a young boy, and she was my girlfriend for about two or three weeks I think.
Rebecca was wearing a suit and looked very tidy, I on the other hand was wearing a pair of old jeans and a hoodie and felt a little inferior. She didn’t hear me at first, but eventually she turned round and said, “Are you Byron’s brother?” This would be a strange thing for her to say because she didn’t really know my brother. At this point I noticed she was with another man, also wearing a suit, who stood behind her watching. I assumed this man to be her boyfriend and I felt insanely jealous of him. He didn’t speak; he just watched.
I felt shabby in my old clothes. We were in a field and for some reason I did a couple of backward rolls (like kids do in gym class). Rebecca promised she’d be back in a few minutes, and then I woke up.
Rebecca is not representing herself here. When I think of Rebecca I think of desire and dreams. She is wearing a suit which may symbolize work, and as I have just started a new job this seems to fit. At the moment I feel a little inferior to my job and the other people at work. The man watching over Rebecca perhaps symbolises the reality that although I have this job, everything is not as secure as I have convinced myself. Doing a couple of backward rolls could be a way of distancing myself from reality.